Journey

I often wonder what brought me to the place that I am at. I know what life has dealt me. But why did it happen in the manner that it did? NOT complaining! I’ve had my share of bumps & bruises, love & heartache, sadness & happiness, tried & true. Although my journey is far from over I cannot help but to think, what’s next? In all that has happened I find that I am still scared, intimidated, leery of WHAT IF’S!

Am I going to make it?

Will I do enough?

Is what I offer sufficient enough?

I tell myself, YES! I have survived, succeeded, overcome, endured and still strive for more.

Nothing that has taken place happened on its own. Things I was unsure of, I began to let go & let be. Instead of over analyzing any situation, I became more understanding, trustworthy of myself. I conquered fears, fought through obstacles, cried through pain and yet I’m alive, stronger, independent, more capable and plowing forward.

My journey is nothing like I imagined, but it’s MINE! I OWN IT! No one can change it, I do not want to. I will continue to set goals, aspirations, faith in the truth I see. Love what I know has the greatness that I can see, touch, hold, hear, know. This isn’t meant for other ts to comprehend, it’s for ME! And, YES, I will be selfish about it because I love where I cam from, where I am now, and where the future will take me.

I am my own CAPTAIN!

* Cheers! *
TT

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There isn’t a Perfect… Is there?!?!?!


“Every day there are challenges that are thrown at us…  Who should we be, where should we go???  What will people think of me, the things that I do, the decisions that I make???  Do we truly have to strive for perfection, but perfection in the eyes of others or the eyes of ourselves, our mind’s eye???

Everyday that goes on is a day that we live not for the satisfaction of others but for the satisfaction that we can achieve that which others think we can’t, or what we have told ourselves won’t work…

Define Perfection…  In the dictionary its a noun which means:

  • perfect nature: the quality of something that is as good or suitable as it can possibly be
  • process of perfecting: the process of becoming or making something perfect
  • example or instance of being perfect: somebody or something that reaches the highest attainable standard, or an instance of this

Funny!  I don’t think that this is a suitable definition but synonyms state excellence, flawlessness…  We are excellent in our own ways, we are flawless not in the eyes of other but what we see in ourselves…

Why uphold the image that others view you in if it is truly not the person that you are…  Excellence, or perfection is being proud of who you are, where you have gone, how far you will go and the drive that pushes you each day to make the next day better for yourself than it was the day before…

There will be obstacles that will bring you down, but why let them?  We each have our own strengths and should surround ourselves with others that bring that strength out, encourage it, embrace it…  Love you for who you truly are…  Hint that isn’t what is on the outside, it the entirety of YOU!

I have flaws, imperfections, have things that are not what the general public would deem as beautiful…  But there is no other person that is ME…  that was left to my mind, my body, my heart…

There is nothing better in the world than taking each day for what it is at face value and making the best out of it all and recognizing that there isn’t a perfect…  there is a quality of perfection, but nothing is perfect without a few bumps and bruises…

Here’s to another day!

TT

Here’s to 30

I think that this year has kind of centered around my age…  But not really…  I have done things so far that I did not imagine that I would do…  I have a bucket list and there are still so many things that I would like to do before its too late or I chicken out… 

I keep telling myself, “I think I can, I think I can” and sometimes it isn’t enough but it doesn’t stop me from trying…  I will say that some of the things that I have accomplished, like running the 5k, getting another tattoo, getting an industrial piercing has its own kind of self rewards…  I enjoy doing these things and it does not matter if no one else understands it…

Gym, working out, eating right…  this is all a routine now…  Although I still do enjoy my favorite foods…  I will take steak with some sauteed onions, rice and beans, potatoes, any day…  But I make sure that I do have a balance…  

On my bucket list still is to get three more tattoos, a few more piercings, complete more obstacles in a mud run (which I did do one this year, FUN!!!), learn and master how to drive a manual, ride a motorcycle, learn to ride by myself, skydive, just to name a few…

On top of this, although I have fun I miss my family and life has been hard the last couple of months when I feel that my heart is ENTIRELY in another state…  No one said this thing called life was easy and being 30 isn’t so different from 21 😉  I look forward to all the new challenges, making new memories, adding more to my life, to my family and just being HAPPY!!!

You’re biggest obstacle is yourself…  So I’m going to move out of my own way and just let life happen one day at a time…

Cheers!
TT

Isn’t life GRAND!?!

It’s been a while since my last post and I know, I know…  I’ve been slacking but what can you do when you work full time at a busy Ford dealership…  go to school half time…  and have duties at your church…  I do make time for the FUN stuff like hanging out with friends and watching movies and all but that sometimes takes the back burner because I’ll work out…

The workout bug definitely got me this year and I’ve been relentless with squats, crunches, push ups…  You name it I’m doing it…  

Not only that but the dating pool has led to some interesting stories…  Confusion, heart break, Whhaaaaa (in my minion voice — yes I will quote Despicable Me)…  

I’m living for the randomness and making sure that there’s fun along the way…  I can be anyone’s entertainment at the moment because I have so much going on but I still have my sense of humor…  The least I can do is laugh about it all…

I will say that I am glad that the cicadas DID NOT come to Maryland…  I would’ve gone on a very personal hiatus to Kalamazoo or Hawaii…  Anywhere where there weren’t any of those creepy looking bugs…  

For now I’ll count down until my 30th…  I have 25 days of saying that I’m 29, but I’m loving every minute of every day…  Why???  Because life isn’t worth living if you aren’t living it…

😉

TT

Another random break

Sometimes you just have to walk away from the computer and get outside. Take a break from the hustle and bustle at work, find some quiet, enjoy the breeze. On a beautiful day like today it’s so easy to just take in the silence. Until a bug buzzes by or a butterfly flies directly at you or a pinecone hits the metal table you are sitting at to scare the life out of you… that’s when you realize yup breaks over nature is not for me. Now the pool… that sounds more like me. Bye bye trees, thanks for the shade gotta go find sunshine, a margarita, and a beach chair! Yes that sounds nice………… ~C~

Slacking just a little.

So about this blog… I’m completely slacking on my blog game! I can admit that. So much going on in life and so little time to write about it. We must, we must, we must increase ohhh wrong thought… We must schedule appointments with ourselves for ourselves that’s what I wanted to say. Easier said than done I know but we should push for it.

Today is the kind of day I woke up feeling like taking over the world and having Mexican for lunch. Really? Lunch at 9:00am… Only I wake up hungry. Anywho I will keep this short and sweet. Let’s be incredible and make the best out of this and every day! Go forth and conquer my sister! Together we are unstoppable! Until next entry stay motivated my friend… Love your face… C!

If I were a Bug….

Yes a bug well maybe insect is the better word here… I’ve decided I would be a Wasp. Why you ask… Well for starters they dont have to get up and get dressed every morning. It’s almost 2pm and I’ve been walking around with my shirt inside out. Inside out at work in front of people and I went to lunch so more people… sigh. Wasps clearly dont have that problem! Then there is the ability to scare the life out of people just by being around. If you haven’t figured this out I had an encounter with a wasp today. He tried to kill me! I was just minding my business enjoying the weather on the drive back to work from lunch and he comes flying in my car! Really sir wasp?? Of all the cars on the road you pick mine? So me being the girl that I am almost ran my car off the road in a panic to grab a notebook and swing. I dont know if I hit him or scared him but lucky for me he left. I won this battle! Yes one small victory for this girl. Now that I think about it maybe being a wasp isn’t so great… everyone would want to end my little life. hmmmmmmmm back to wanting to be a bird then so I can poop on people’s heads… yes very childlike thinking but hey some people just deserve to be pooped on……..